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Unarmed Response
They bring in our wounded
flown from Baghdad to A & E
at the Royal Infirmary, Edinburgh.
Daffodils stand to attention
on Middle Meadow Walk.
The hunt for Saddam hots up
and the media bombards us
with wall-to-wall war news.
The warm spring sun feels
undeserved and out of place
as lives in limbo blur by on stretchers.
In the glass-walled waiting room
where half the chairs are broken
and nobody's mopped the floor for days
a homeless boozer sips his tea,
grumbles to the vending machine.
A teenage mother snaps at her kid
thrashing about in his buggy,
cracking his head against the frame.
Behind curtains in Immediate Care
my loved one lies, not fighting,
not even arguing, barely breathing.
The scrawl of his heartbeat
crawls across a bleeping screen.
Source
From Lure (Edinburgh: Chapman, 2003).
Reprinted by permission of the publisher.
Author's note
With this poem, the title came first. It came
to me in the Accident and Emergency waiting room and stayed with
me until I got around to writing the poem. As is probably obvious,
this was a personal response to being caught up in a family crisis
in the midst of an international one. Nothing is invented. Selected,
yes, of course. There may be more selecting than inventing - in
the sense of dreaming something up or plucking it out of the air
- as in much creative work. The title was in itself a response to
a sign which I came across many years ago outside a house in the
US: Armed Response. A step up from Beware of the Dog, that's for
sure.
I demonstrated against my country going to war with Iraq as, independently,
did my children and the only remotely positive thing I can see to
have come out of a situation which still becomes worse by the day,
is that a new generation of young people became politicised.
But back to the poem and how it came about. My partner had been
suffering from chest pains and, though he'd had a coronary 'event'
six months previously, had not admitted the fact to himself, or anybody
else, until he was well into a second 'event'. Personally I still
prefer the old, less euphemistic term 'attack'. I had to drive him
from the medical centre to the hospital as I was told it would be
faster than waiting for an ambulance. It wasn't a long drive - but
would have been much longer now that the Royal Infirmary has relocated
- and each red traffic light, each queue of traffic might have been
adding more damage to my partner's heart.
When I reached the dropoff point at A & E, my first sight was
of bloody, battle-wounded men on stretchers being rushed behind
curtains. My partner too was rushed behind a curtain and I was left
in the waiting room, watching the seconds tick away on the wall
clock. Of course I worried about my partner and my children who
would be coming home from school and wondering why nobody was around
but I trusted the doctors to do what they could - and they did -
and what pressed more on me was what it must have been like at that
time in Baghdad, where the allied forces sent by Bush and Blair
had been bombing.
In an earlier version of the poem I had included an imagined scene
in Baghdad but cut it out, partly because I didn't have enough facts
and in this poem I wanted to stick to facts, selected facts, and
partly because I hoped that the reader would make the connection
anyway and think beyond the situation being described, in the same
way as I found myself doing, about a war which had, at least in
my own locality, come shockingly home.
Editor's comment
Successful mix of the public and private –
attempted by many poets and doesn’t always work – it’s
difficult to avoid the feeling of it having been manufactured. This
reads much more naturally (as does D. M. Black’s) –
and movingly.
Biography
Dilys Rose lives in Edinburgh. Her publications
include the short story collections Our Lady of the Pickpockets
(1989), Red Tides (1993), and War Dolls (1998),
the novel Pest Maiden (1999), the poetry collections Madame
Doubtfire’s Dilemma (1989) and Lure (2003) both
published by Chapman, and a collection for children When I Wear
my Leopard Hat (1997).
Individual stories and poems have been widely
published in newspapers, anthologies and magazines, broadcast on
radio, and adapted for stage and screen and her play Learning
the Paso Doble, was premiered at the Traverse Theatre in 1999.
Her Selected Stories will be published in 2005 by Luath
Press.
She has received several awards for her writing
including the Macallan/Scotland on Sunday
Short Story Prize, a Robert Louis Stevenson Memorial Award, a Society
of Authors’ Travel Award, the Canongate Prize, and two Scottish
Arts Council book awards. Red Tides was shortlisted for
both the McVitie’s Scottish Writer of the Year and the Saltire
Scottish Book of the Year, and Pest Maiden was nominated
for the Impac Prize.
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